May 25, 2012

May 22, 2012

May 10, 2012

I had a really bad dream again. Sigh. Idk what's happening to me. I keep having bad dreams nowadays ):

Labels: dreams

May 7, 2012

I made my dad angry just now with a stranger who was angry with me :X

I was at ntuc with my dad. And I was waiting in th queue with th trolley while my dad was randomly walking around. Then this couple was somewhere nearby wanting to join a queue. And they were deciding which queue to join. I was quite near to th guy in fnt alr and I thought there was enough space behind me for them to go past. Then suddenly I realised they were not moving. So I moved in front a bit more. Then as they went past, th lady said super loudly, "So reluctant to move." So I was like ?!??! Cause I was alr so near to th guy and neither of them said excuse me. But th lady was so angry with me for not moving.

So when my dad came back I told him what happened. Th lady was near enough us to hear me but I didn't care XD And she was glaring at me. Then after I finished th story my dad dagger stared her till I felt bad :X

Apr 30, 2012

I typed this on my phone on sunday morning th moment I woke up:

I just had a super traumatic dream. But it was quite weird cause I think it kept switching between first and third person. I'll just narrate everyth in first person.

I had this really really big argument with my brother. And it was smth like diary of a wimpy kid. I wanted to have a diary and inside would be everyth that happened at home. Like all th stuff that happened between my bro and me. And it was very weird cause everyth that happened was recorded in this stack of newspapers. So I needed to refer to th newspapers to write/draw my diary. And my bro didn't want me to write this diary so he was VERY VERY angry and he wanted to get rid of th newspapers. So I hid th newspapers in our house which was some gigantic 3-storey house. And he was storming through th entire house searching for th newspapers. I was very very scared that he'd find it. So I kept hiding it in different places. And a few times he almost found it. Then every time I went to sch or went out I would be super scared. And idk what happened to my parents. Cause th dream happened over like 1 or 2 weeks but they weren't ever at home O:

I can't remember how th dream ended. But I woke up feeling really terrible and exhausted. I have no idea why I'd dream this kinda dream ):
 
Anyway, it seems like I'm overly reliant on ODJ. I left my ODJ and bible at rachii's on tuesday and ever since I haven't been doing my quiet time very properly. Like I just pray a few sentences and that's it. I'm meeting her to get my stuff today so yay (: But I need to learn to be less dependent on reading material for quiet time.

Thank God for cell yesterday (: I haven't led cell in a really long time. And I was at camp so I didn't have much time to prepare for cell. So I was a bit scared that I wouldn't be able to lead cell well. But God's really faithful. I prayed and asked Him to help me lead cell. And in th end it was quite alright (: I guess it helped that only three of them were there so it was easier to interact and stuff. Thank You God (:

Josiaaah lost his wallet ytd ): He had in when we were in audi 2 and he said he put it into his bag but after that it was gone ): God please help him get his wallet back.

Boxy's still not working. I guess th stuff I really want to get back are my uni stuff, pictures and music. I may start using fb. Cause at least that means my pictures are safe. Sigh.

Labels: dreams

Apr 28, 2012

I'm 2/3 through camp (:
We're using th sembawang campsite
Th one we used for heroes camp
It brings back memories (:
Looking forward to high elements later
Ytd was kind of disappointing though
I was looking forward to an intensive camp
But ytd was v slack
Like so slack that it makes people sleepy
I did learn a lot
But everyth was just kinda slow moving
I was th first to get up today
Made a lot of noise trying to get down th creaky bed
Managed to spend some time with God
I miss my bible and odj
They're at rachii's
Kkay my phone's dying

Apr 26, 2012

I'm very very very very scared now. All along boxy has been infected with some virus. And my antivirus software alr expired. So ytd I finally downloaded an antivirus scanner thingy. It found 26 infected files. They were mostly trojans I think. And th program automatically cleaned up th files. Today when I tried to switch on boxy, it said there's some system file mismatch error. And there's th link to th windows website to do a windows validation. But I've tried it many many times. And it doesn't ever finish validating. It suddenly just restarts boxy then th error message appears again. So now I can't access anyth on boxy except th internet. I'm really very scared. Cause I haven't backed up boxy for very long. And I have like everyth on here. Like sch stuff and pics and all. And uni stuff. And I really dk what to do now.

God please let boxy work. I really need th stuff inside. And I'm so scared I can't get anyth back. God I'm so so so scared. Please let th windows website solve th problem. God I really need a miracle.

Apr 22, 2012

I'm in th mrt otw home from tampines now. Went for planetshakers concert at vfc (: thank God for th awesome time we had praising Him (: thank God for th souls saved today (: we didn't have sermon cause everyth was really impromptu XD didn't buy th new planetshakers album cause I'm totally money-less.

Th rest are still at tampines eating. We were all supposed to go back tgt by train but I left earlier /: I'm quite tired cause I didn't sleep well ytd. Kept waking up. And tomorrow's a long day. And my stomach's still giving me problem. And dad's gonna pick me from clementi so I don't want to reach too late. And I guess I want some time alone.

I've been a bit weird th past few days. Haven't been sleeping very well. And I feel very bothered by smth. Can't really decide what. I miss being happy. I miss being worry-free.

I realised smth today. Th emotions of people around me affect me A LOT. When people around me are happy, I may have plenty to worry about but my mind detaches from th horrible stuff and I become super high and crazy and all. But if someone I'm close to is really sad, I become very very sad too. I don't really know why. And I try not to be sad. Cause two sad people tgt won't make each other happier. A sad person needs a happy person to cheer th sad person up. But I can't help it. Cause I can't bring myself to be happy when I know someone's dying inside. Looks like I won't make a very good counsellor.

You're starting school tomorrow (: I really hope you'll have an awesome time in poly. I pray that God will bless you with a good class and good friends and that your life will shine for God in this mission field that He has placed you in (:

Apr 20, 2012

I just took my BTT! On th 985 otw home (: I got 49/50 haha. Quite embarrassing that I gt one question wrong cause it was crazily easy haha. Even easier than th evaluation ( thank God!! Ohhh and they gave us 50 minutes but I finished in less than 10 XD ptL!!  And after I finished, I was supposed to apply for my PDL. I need it to start my practical lessons. But apparently I need $25 to apply. And I only had $15 in my wallet cause renting th graduation gown yesterday made all my money fly away ._. So I need to go back later or another day to apply ):

I'm famished!! Can't wait to reach home!!

Lol I feel weird using th word "famished" XD

Apr 18, 2012

Yesterday was so crazy. I napped 3 hours then at night I couldn't sleep so I went out and read a book until 2am and I still didn't feel sleepy but thank God I could fall asleep. And yesterday was th first time in a reeeally long time that I stayed home th entire day. I have been going out like every day since exams ended haha (:

Apr 13, 2012

I only remember what happened at th last part of my dream. I was in th small room next to flamingo room with a lot of other youth. They were playing some xbox game. Oh and th room was like renovated or something and the cupboards were all gone so th room was really big and the door was super big to the toilet. Then I saw clement doing stuff to his guitars just outside th room. And he wasnt using his electric so I borrowed it and started trying random stuff. But th electric was crazy. It had like 8 strings and th neck was SUPER broad. Like I couldnt even play G. So I was randomly strumming and anyhow pressing. After that thaddeustan and justin walked out of th toilet and saw me anyhowing then they went into th room. And they were shouting or something and asking me to stop. Cause apparently th amp for th electric was inside th room and it was SUPER loud. But I couldn't hear it lol and I thought it was switched off. Yupp so I quickly ran into th room and sharlyn was covering her ears and almost glaring at me hahaha then I woke up.

So anyway I haven't been blogging much cause blogger decided to stop working on my phone. It's been like that for around 2 weeks alr. It just can't load ._. And I gave up trying ):

Yesterday I went to jeeray's to do storm tee! We came up with a new draft! And we did a lot more than most of th other times that I've gone there to do so PTL!!! And yay a lot of people like it :D but now idk when we'll get to do again cause jeeray starts sch next week.

OHHHHH and a letter came in th mail ytd (: BUT my SD card reader's being cranky again so I can't get th pics into my comp ):

I'm meeting e-ah today!!! :D I'm working with her at some sports thing haha. We're supposed to set up stuff. It sounds quite fun (:

Labels: dreams

Apr 4, 2012

God this whole thing is super confusing and tiring. I really want to do what You want me to. I don't really know if this is what I should be doing. But I'm just gonna do it and leave th rest to You. God let Your will be done. Don't let me get in if You don't want me there.

Mar 29, 2012

Oops I typed this out in my phone on th plane on th way back from mission trip! Forgot to type it out here! I'm gonna touch type and I'm really lazy so unless it really changes the meaning, I won't correct all th typos (:

This mission trip has been really different from all th others that I;ve been on. For one, it was really slack. And I guess that;s why even though I know the ppl there were blessed by what we did, I didn;t geel that much of a sense of satisfaction.

But what I thank God for is that He has taught me a lot during this trop. I don't wannt tpo give the details cause idk how to explain everyth. But yhere;s this joy within me knowing that I';ve done something that pleases God (:

The second thing I thiank Godfor is th healing of my finger./ It had been hurting th past week but I kpt rubbing it so it wasn't that bad. But n the day we were leaving, it was super painful when i woke up and it was too ainful to rub. So th whole of tue and wed and thu I was really uncomforatnle cause it hut so much. But from thu night onwards it suddenly didnt hurt anymore. Th swell was still there but it didn;t bother me at all and I was able to play wcoustic at th mindoro church while we were doing youth ministry (:

And th third thing is that I idnd';t get tetanus. I was scratched by a rusty notice board pin that was poking through the board from the other side. And my elbow started bleeding. Then i wsa really sacred taht I would get tetanus. So I praued and wiped with alcohol wipes and pit a plaster and I'm fine so ptL!! (:

Thanl You God (:

My touch typing is terrible XD

Mar 28, 2012

I'm otw home now from th mohh interview (: I have really no idea whether it was good or bad. But I'm not going to let that worry me. I'm just leaving it to God. Ohh and how could I forget. Thank You God for being with me during th interview (:

Hmm I have an urge to blog but nothing to blog about. Usually I have tons of random thoughts flying through my head. But now there's nothing. Haha it feels kinda weird.

I wanna play batman game!! Is there a permanent cure for motion sickness? /:
Ohhhh I can't wait for easter rally and church camp (:

Mar 27, 2012

On th way to visit josiaah and felicia at th salad shop (:

Mar 26, 2012

Mum: Have we sung this song in main service before?
Me: What song is this?
Mum: This song.
Me: Thanks mum.

Labels: funny conversations

Mar 22, 2012

Thank You God (: Today was so much better (: We're all packing our stuff now. Leaving for mindoro tomorrow at 5.30am (:

I miss everyone back in sg so much.
Dad: Hope your meeting with your customer went well! :D
Mum and Jedidiah and Josiaah: Get well soon!! Take care and get enough sleep! Praying with you! (:
Joieeeee: Hahaha I know you're like super happy this weekend (: I'm really happy to see you so happy (: jiayou with school and prep for lasalle auditions and everyth (:
Jeeraayy: Hope you're having fun in camp (: and hope everyth's becoming better for you. I'm praying with you. Take care jeeraayy (:
Shroom: Don't die in school! You can do it! Just remember whom you're studying for (: jiayou shroom!
Joshyy: Yay you'll be back in sg tomorrow! Arrive home safely kay!! Hope you've had an awesome time in thailand (:
Teacher: I miss calling you every night ): hope you're having fun in clinical practice! Jiayou teacher! Continue praying for God's direction and peace (:
Joel: Really hope you'll be able to find your 11B!! Jiayou in army!! Haha it rhymes (:
MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH! GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

Mar 20, 2012

God we need You

Mar 19, 2012

Day 18: A prophecy

Isaiah 19 - a prophecy against Egypt

It's too long so I'm lazy to type everyth here (:

Labels: 30 Days Scripture Challenge

Mar 18, 2012

Sunday
- sun svc
- youth svc and cell
- mission trip meeting
- sakae dinner

Monday
- piano lesson
- visited popo

Tuesday
- visited jojo
- played bang with jojo and jon
- dinner and ice cream with teevee

Wednesday
- lunch at ps carrie's
- prep for AGPC worship camp
- royal rangers camp worship thing

Thursday
- AGPC worship camp

Friday
- AGPC worship camp
- YA bbq

Saturday
- sign language intro course
- sat svc
- dinner with josiaaah and jeeraayy
- mission trip stuff

Mar 17, 2012

This week has been amazing
God is amazing (:
I'm so overwhelmed by Him
I kept smiling to myself and randomly laughing otw home yesterday
Worship camp was awesome
YA was awesome
Thank You God (:

Mar 12, 2012

This is just for me to keep track of what I'm doing so it's boring so don't need to read it (:

LAST WEEK

Monday
- piano lesson
- visited mama
- found out her roomie was hospitalised (she's like 94 years old O:)
- registered for driving stuff at BBDC
- crazy headache

Tuesday
- timothy program
- clement's house
- crazy headache again ):
- dinner with band year 3s at marina sq seoul garden

Wednesday
- timothy program
- bought presents at jp with joieeee
- joieeee stayed over :D

Thursday
- timothy program
- driving basic theory lesson
- joieeeee and mei stayed over :D

Friday
- timothy program
- celebrated zeh's birthday
- went to np with joieee and jeeray
- watched them choreo th dance
- YA

Saturday
- woke up super late
- storm prac
- counted cny money
- applied for mohh scholarship
- sat svc
- youth comm meeting
- crashed jon's cell

Mar 10, 2012

This post is for Claire (: Hey claire! How did you know my blog url!! I was really stunned when I saw your tag! Cause hardly anyone comes here already. And only blog walkers tag on my tagboard! Haha I wouldn't have realised you're claire if you hadn't typed my name! Ahhh I miss you so much! Jael's really different now! We have a new youth pastor! Ps Daphne! And idk if you've heard! When Rev James Singh came to our church, he prophesied that there will be a revival in Jael this year but it will only come with much prayer and intercession! Yupp so there are so many things happening in our youth (: I hope you're doing really well in Australia! Hope you're doing well in school and church! God bless you claire! Visit us soon kay!

Mar 9, 2012

Diarrhoea again ._. I keep getting diarrhoea nowadays. Like ever since around one month ago when I had wanton mee dinner at lot 1 then crazy stomachache then rushed to thaddeus' house then I was stuck in th toilet for like half an hour. Then today I had wanton mee dinner from jew kit then thaddeus' house then diarrhoea again.

Mar 7, 2012

It's times like this when I wonder how much I mean to people
It's times like this when I wish I could just give everything I am to be there for people
Whether I mean anything to them or not
Whether I feel appreciated or not
I hate how my feelings always get in the way
How my need to be loved and appreciated, when unmet, prevents me from giving my all
How I pull back and build walls around me when I'm disappointed or feel like what I'm doing doesn't mean anything to anyone
How I can't ignore the overwhelming emotions within me
It's so tiring when I try to give my all
But they just don't seem to realise
And I don't seem to matter to them

And when I think about it
I realise this is exactly what happened to Jesus
No one understood Him
No one appreciated Him
No one was there for Him
And yet He gave His all
He died for people who mocked Him
People who hated Him

God I'm really tired. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what You want me to do. I want to love people. I want to be like Jesus. I want to be selfless. I want to be someone they can turn to. Someone they can rely on. I don't know why I try so hard, only to see people forget about me. Sometimes I wonder if I have the right motives. Am I doing this because I really love these people? Or because I need to feel important. Because I need to feel needed. I really don't know. God, I'm confused.

Mar 6, 2012

Its so annoying when people change th bible and interpret th bible in such a warped way just to suit their crazy doctrines ._.

Mar 5, 2012

It's exactly one week since exams ended (: I've had so much to do haha. I'm quite sleep deprived /:

Mar 1, 2012

I just completed my tintin jigsaw! Like within 2 days :D haha it was actually a birthday present from a lot of school people. And it had to hide in my cupboard for 3 months for me to finish exams before I could start on it haha

Feb 27, 2012

I really hope this pleases You